The "What If's"

 

Thinking! Thinking is another

way of saying; I'm lazy. I much 

rather sit around and think about 

all the "What if's." 

All these "What if's" are keeping 

me at bay. I like being outside.

I love jogging or sitting outside 

just listening to the sound of silence 

and the birds singing. It brings me 

peace and relaxation of it all. 

Sitting inside when it's cold 

or raining has me thinking 

about "What if" I do this or that 

and then never do it instead I take

a nap. I don't nap that much. 

I don't mind cleaning my house.

I am kind of a neat freak and 

organized, so what do I do 

when that is done, well you 

guessed it I sit and think what 

if I do this and then never do it,

before I know it it's time for 

supper and then bed; 

all to wake up in the morning 

and do the same thing all 

over again. 

Nowadays since I have gotten 

older I study, I study a lot. 

I love reading God's word and 

taking notes and writing. I love 

getting to know God more. 

I have always done this though,

but since I've been down 

all I basically do is think about 

the "What if's" about my 

medical procedures coming up.

I need more God time I think,

I need faith and patience. 

Something I need to work on.

Rely on my faith and the fact is 

God is in control, not me.