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It against me, or if you just don’t
Care. I don’t need someone
Who Is just interested in a part
Time friendship, that only comes
Around when they are bored.
I am trying my best to cope
With the loss of my mother.
Now I hear people saying
That they are tired of that
Excuse. Well excuse me
If I don’t cope that well!
It hasn't even been that long
ago, since I buried her.
It makes one feel like an
Orphan, as one of my friends
stated. It is a lonely feeling.
Don’t go asking me questions or
I will just cover it up with an
Excuse so I have to turn you
Down. It just means I am not
Comfortable in a situation.
I go where I feel I am
comfortable and wanted, not
where someone will feel sorry
for me.
I don’t want to have the burden
Of someone’s else’s plan that
they have for me and
Just for their gain, so I feel that
I am at a loss. I’m not a stock
Market that you can gamble on.
I have feelings just like you.
When my walls come crashing
Down, and you are too busy for me,
I am to take a number and stand
In line.
I feel confused all the time and lonely
Like I never really mattered.
It makes me uncomfortable
When you strike up a
Conversation and play your
Twenty questions and then
Turn it around and use it for
Your use. That isn’t a
Friendship to me. It's hurts
my feelings to be played.
You use my feelings saying
It is drama, when it was incited
By you. I feel like I am at a
Police lineup. It’s not fun.
I guess I will never understand
How friendships work.
Now I know why I stayed a hermit,
and left all my feelings inside of me.
I never dreamed someone would use
them against me.
No one really cares, they
Like to use you and make you
Feel bad. Just like my heart
And how it was played with,
Yet once again. My heart isn’t
A play toy. I have feelings
just like you.
Don’t go asking me anymore
Questions! Please just treat me like
A stranger again. I am tired
Of games and being hurt.
I am still grieving and don’t
Need anything else on my plate.
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